Maybe I envy
Envy that ability to switch
off one thing and on another
Would that make things less painful?
To pretend
Pretend this never happened
simply because you made it so?
Motherly Love
I am sometimes so overcome
By love for my child
The moment he falls asleep
Head on my lap
Airline blanket wrapped around
His legs getting too long
But still able to fit
He jerks as he lets himself go
Into the unconscious
His entire body spasms
Just like mine does
Before I fall asleep
Or so I have been told
Just loving our time
This precious time before
He becomes a man
and needs me less
And will eventually comfort
me in my old age
Merciful garden
Since we parted ways, just a handful of days ago
the garden we planted together
has sat unattended
Too symbolic to go near it
I have avoided it
When I considered the sadness of it withering away
and finally gathered my strength
I approached the plot in my backyard
The garden box you built by hand
intended as a project to bring us closer together
I messed up
and figuring that the garden knew this
I expected a sad sight
the vegetables all dried out, barely hanging on
without any water
and so much sun this past week
The sight that welcomed me
surprised me
An entire cluster of cherry tomatoes
red, ripe, ready to eat
The Brussels sprouts
barely contained by the fencing
The kale that had not yielded much as of yet
was beaming with life as well
ready to be picked and chopped
into my son's favorite salad
It just wasn't the time yet
for it to flourish
it being still early in the season